Monday 16th April 2018
Today is Monday 16th April 2018.
If you have a child that is starting school in September, then you will understand that today is an emotional day. And I am feeling rather emotional.
Today is the day that we find out what school my rainbow is official going to In September.
How has that happened, in a blink of an eye, she's gone from a tiny 5 ½ oz baby, who seem so small in my arms.
To a chatty, confident, beautiful little girl, that is so excited about starting big school in September.
Why do they grow up so fast?
We got our first choose school which is the school in our village. Two minute walk from our house.
My baby is starting school!
It also seems to bring more stress and worry to myself, whether it just the same for other parents or if it doesn’t help with my mental illness.
But I find myself stressing about school drop of and pick up and my job at present. I've been talking to the preschool that she attends on a Monday, as they do breakfast and after school club.
I work four days a week. Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and Friday. Rainbow goes to her dads Thursday evening till Saturday afternoon.
So I'm hoping to be able to drop off and pick up rainbow two days a week and then put her in breakfast and after school club two days.
I don’t want to have to keep relaying on my ex mother-in-law anymore. If she wants to pick Rainbow up from school etc I want it to be because she wants to, not because she has too. If that makes sense.
At present she picks rainbow up from preschool and nursery on a Monday and Tuesday for me.
Then rainbows dad doing Fridays drop off and pick up, when he has her.
But as I can work different rotas from 7.30am-6pm every week its stressing me out a little
I don’t have any family close to me as they all live at least an hour away.
(I am currently talking to my boss and trying to sort it all out)
Saturday 28th April 2018
More stress. Rainbows dad has just dropped her off and explained that his job might be changing soon but he doesn’t know for sure at the moment.
This may mean that he can’t have rainbow on a Thursday night as usual.
It will leave me with sorting out, school drop off, pick up and childcare for a Friday as well as the rest of the week.
Stress stress stress!
Don’t get me wrong, I'm glad that he's keeping me in the loop and he has said that obviously if he can’t have her Thursday night that he would give me some more maintence money. Which I do really appreciate.
It just not helping my mental health issues, but that’s a different story completely.
I'm going to go and have a cup of tea and chill for a bit. Well as much as I can with a 4 year old. While she's playing with her new favourite thing - slime.